ALEXA: WHAT IS LOVE

What is love, when all it brings is pain and hurt? I ask myself, hoping to get an answer. My heart is hurt and broken, no peace inside of me, then tell me how do I get the answer to all the questions running through my mind? Looking for tears but the sea never dries. I've cried out my eyes, wondering where all this is coming from. What have I done wrong.....where have I gone wrong? can anyone wake me from this dream, I still cant believe my eyes.

We never had any issue for a long time now and it was all going well in my relationship till the day I told him about how he spends his money, my money, our money. Yes its ours even though he worked for it. Thought love is what belongs to the man belongs to his wife. I was only concern about nit all because I know someday it will affect me as a woman in his life.

All I said was Shimori, how come you have spent so much in the last few days and you are broke..... He is my best friend, love and play mate so I could ask him anything as long as I care about him and about us. Rather it became a raging storm. He got very upset and walked out of the house. Shimori please don't go, don't walk out of me I begged him but he wouldn't listen. I had to let him go. He's very pissed.

He got back very late as usual and said nothing to me, as a woman that made me even worse and angrier but I had to keep cool. I asked him how his day went but he said nothing. I asked him for the second time, what's wrong? He said, nothing that he is fine. Ok, I get that. I kept mute and watch him do his thing. But as a woman, I'm not happy with all that is happening and his new attitude and was also thinking if he's still angry as he did not even call me the whole day. I laid on the bed with my nighties but still worried and unsure of what is going on with him. He finished up and turned of the light, laid on the bed beside me and said good night. This time he did not touch me, he did not hold me as he use to, he did not even use the same blanket as we've always done every night. This night is really different. I became very grieved and pained in my heart, held the tears and pain so I don't react and mess things up. Before anything he was already asleep and even snoring. God damn.....so annoying and irritating. I said my prayers and slept and tried not to bother myself.

I thought within myself, is he seeing another woman, is he listening to gossips, is he trying to test my patient, or did I really hurt him with what I said before he left for work? All these questions and more were running through my mind. Unlike him, wakes up and call me to pray with him before any other thing, but this time was different. He got up and walked straight to the bathroom, without a word and knowing that I'm awake. I got more worried and pissed which turned to anger and pain inside of me.

Shimori, I called him. He did not answer then I walked up to him and asked.... What is going on? Last Saturday we talked about this and I thought it was resolved, why are you still angry about the money issue? Does that mean I should never ask you about how you spend your money, what you sue it for or even how you get it? If that's what you want, then its fine by me. I promise no more questions about your income and what you use it for so we can live in peace but I must tell you, it can never be cool if I don't know and it will be very unfair of me if I don't ask. But if that's what you want then it fine by me. It really hurts to be in a relationship where you don't have any say...all you do is yes sir, no sir just like a robot. I am not ready for that kind of a man. Without saying anything more, I walked out of him, and the unexpected happened...........

ALEXA: IDEAS FROM MY INSPIRATORS.

After trying all I could by myself and unable to get anywhere. I decided to seek for advise, which is the only and best option unless I want to see my ancestors before time. So I reached out to my mentors and my great source of inspiration.....you will not believe all I got from them. Here's what I took from them.

The first person that responded to my call is Maxwell Ivey Jr. who is a writer, blogger, an influencer and a podcaster. He is one of my greatest source of inspiration. He said to me that he think things would be easier on me and the rest of us if we didn’t have some people out there appearing to do it all and making it look easy. That I should be kind to myself and do what I want most or what I need most first. I am a special person. He have heard my music, so I shouldn't doubt it. What would I love to change about my job that would make it more enjoyable in the short term? Perhaps I and my supervisor or employer could talk about this. Though not every boss is willing to change or amend their policies but some are. Until I get there, I  should know that he will always be there for me. That only gave me the courage to face one of my biggest fear, which is doubt.

While I was trying to redefine my path, here comes another woman I admire so much and here's her advise.....
Her name is Renee Radicioni Pavlus   she said there are lot of people going through the same thing out there. That my story is like sounds like a lot of people’s story. She continued, the problem is, we think of all these things in our brain and minds, some of us look at the positive outcomes, and some of us look at their possibilities. I myself have spun around many times with 20 fingers in 20 pies, accomplishing very little, regretting, getting frustrated, and wondering why why why?
Well, recently I’ve had to learn that I needed to focus my point down, maybe taking on two challenges instead of 20. Maybe working out a plan, or maybe finding people to help me make this plan happen. No they might not be great things, but perhaps even little things are is important. It’s kind of like building our arsenal of talents, gifts, skills. It’s so easy to dream, Hope, plan ahead, but if we don’t define our Voice, purpose, or understand our reality good and bad, nothing will happen, absolutely nothing. I am a testimony to this, you know, having a spirit of willingness, having capabilities, or knowing that to accomplish certain things we need the help of others is part of our learning and growing experience.
So I am simplifying, I mean in the way and the tasks that I will take on and I’m also allowing myself to try to be a little more patient, or allowing for pitfalls, or in possibilities which often happens when you don’t see or when you need help learning new skills, or when you need help just progressing. Don’t be ashamed of asking for help, but choose the people you ask help from very wisely. Many people mean well, but when it comes down to actually achieving, accomplishing, and doing that either back off, try to help with some confusion, or get at flustered as we may be.
So, having said all this, baby steps, organized baby steps, looking and examining how you can achieve these baby steps, and looking at the barriers towards achieving them Chyna, working through each barrier one at a time. We feel so much better when we have achieved something, we feel so much better when we allow ourselves to ask for help in the kindest way possible, but do it in a realistic honest way, and don’t make your expectations too high, because that can also sabotage your progress, I know this, first hand.

I couldn't help it but pick my broken pieces, put it all together and solve the puzzle the world have created for me. I realized that I have to take it one stop at a time and to ask for help from the right people, not acting like I know it all.

Yes I remember, of all the multiple choices in my head and things to do, DeAnna Lynn Rice asked me to pick one, the ones that speaks most, and you go with it. and Evelyn Faix   said she is like that too but I have to start with one first and she suggested that the music lessons can be taken from an online website called musicvi.com. It’s music for the busily impaired I can buy the courses and they are very good I can also get them from the MLS Talking Books location for free computer classes you should go to Lighthouse.

Lastly Edwin Polini said I should only keep my eyes on JesusChrist who is the author and finisher of our faith.

From all these, I come to a conclusion that for one to stop existing and start live he or she needs to

• DECIDE
• CHOOSE
• ACT
• ASK
• FOCUS
• BELIEVE
• HAVE FAITH

The you'll find your way to success as you have a direction now

Thanks for the help......

THE MIRIAM MAKEBA INTERNATIONAL PRIZE OF ARTISTIC CREATIVITY

The creation of this award for the promotion and the valorisations of African Art was announced on the side-lines of the forum of African creators on September 14,2017 by Mr Azzedine Mihoubi, Minister of Culture in recognition of the militant and artistic career of the interpreter.

Objectives of the Prize:

To allow Artists using African Art as a medium to voice their ideas and speak up their minds to be better heard and showcase their creations

To promote African Arts inn all its forms of expression

To encourage talent and creativity

To reward the best artistic creation

Conditions to participate:

Any African artist over 18 years old and living in Africa can take part in the competition. The participant must give proof of an ID and/or a residence permit when living in an African country other than his country of origin. Artists claiming refugee status due to exceptional situations (armed conflict, natural disasters, etc.) may take part in the competition

Transmission of applications:
Interested candidates must send a file including the supporting documents mentioned above (copy of the identity document, residence, etc.). A copy or a description of their artistic project/work.

Applications can be submitted either by post under a closed envelope to “Mr. The President of the Jury of the International Prize of Artistic Creativity Miriam Makeba” at the following address: Office National du Droit d’Auteur et des Droit Voisins (ONDA), 49 rue Aaderrezak HAMLA – 16000 Bologhine – Alger, Algerie Or By email to the following address: prix.myriam.makeba@onda.dz

The deadline for submitting applications is August 31, 2018.

For more information, visit: http://www.samro.org.za/news/articles/call-applications-miriam-makeba-award-artistic-creativity

WORSHIP EVENING 1 EP II

Worship Evening Season 1 Episode II

INTENTIONAL WORSHIP

(RMN 12:1-2)

Intentional worship is the second worship program (episode II) in the year 2018 from Walkers Family, to bring you the best of worship feelings, in a more enjoyable way. A time to worship God from the depth of your heart intentionally, knowing what you're doing and why you're doing it. Rmn 12:1-2 & Jhn 4:20-24

Last Episode (3/04/2018) was super awesome as many turned out to worship God in a dynamic way. BEYOND WORSHP is really a day to remember.

It was with a vision to bringing people together, not just to worship and praise God but to understand the essence of being a worshipper and why we should always worship God. To teach people what true worship is and leading them to Christ. It also had the mission of preaching the good news of Christ (salvation), deliverance, healing, peace, joy, hope and above all love to humanity. Reaching out to the less privilege, helping them develop psychologically, spiritually, and physically.

To help bridge the gap between the high and the low......creating more morals for the child of today.

It is part of our vision to help the needy, widows, orphans and those with special abilities.

This new episode is really going to be an awesome intense worship, as there will be a lot of side attractions like, dancing, drama, and INTENTIONAL worship songs from the heart to the creator. You are all invited as it is really going to be an intentional act for God to blessing his people.

DATE:    19/08/2018
TIME:    4:00pm-7:00pm(WAT)/3:00pm-6:00pm(GMT)
VENUE: RCCG Tabernacle Of Power Parish,
                2 Story B/S Baruwa Inside, Ipaja, Lagos.

Music by:

Pst. Justus Olufelis (the son of glory). Singer, composer/song-writer, pastor, father and a mentor. A man driven with so much power and vision. He is the head pastor of Glorified Peoples Assembly, a church with passion for Christ. He's also a drummer, a worshipper, a praise marshal and had his album lunched last year (TESTIMONY). Have you listened to any of his songs, if no then you really have to get his latest album.

Jeru El (City Of God) An Awe-some singer and song writer with a very strong passion like ours. She is a native of Akure, Oloyemekun, Olomimeji Apejeji lala...born in d 80's, fun and loving. A strong believer, who is in the business of touching lives with her music.

Tosin Israel is a multi talented instrumentalist, who worships and leads you into worship, even without singing. He is a powerful music minister who is always a blessing to all who listens to him sing. Was one of our guest ministers at the last Worship Evening 1 Ep I ( BEYOND WORSHIP) and was a huge blessing to all that were present, with his spirit-filled ministration.

Seun Afolabi, is a worshiper, a drummer, a guitarist, and a keyboardist. He just released a new single, titled IWO NIKAN(ONLY YOU)

Timi Sax, is a saxophonist, a keyboardist and a music director at |RCCG Heaven Of Wisdom Arena. He is a teacher to the core.

Walkers Family, host of the Worship Evening program. A group of young talented music ministers, based in Lagos Nigeria. They came together because of their love for music and passion for the kingdom of God. They specialize in enriching your soul with their spirit filled Pop, Jazz and Hi-Life worship & praise. They also do reggae and hip-hop.
Having the mission to set people free from all forms of operations of life, through music and with a vision to create a peaceful and loving family, irrespective of the tribe, race or denomination in Christ.



Have you also met our partners? They are really awesome and good at what they do. They are simple the best.

 Maxwel Ivey Jr. the blind blogger,

                                                                    Venisa April Radio and TV host of the Xpoze Radio Show

Katherine Winston a talk radio talk show host (Jamaica Funk Radio show)

RCCG Tabernacle Of Power, this is the main venue for the event....a place where God turn the impossible to possible,(solution arena)

Edwin Polini, The Home Made Cash Machine

Map Walker, singer/song writer, talent/artist manager

Praize Wash Hold the best liquid washing soap you can ever get at an affordable price.

Worship Evening

Worship Evening is a gospel musical concert that brings people of different denominations together to worship GOD whole heartedly. It is a direct revelation from the Holy Spirit, which will be coming up quarterly (4 times in a year).

Its vision is to bringing people together to understand the essence of worship, being a worshipper, why we should always worship God, to teach people what true worship is and leading them to Christ.

It also have the mission of preaching the good news of Christ (salvation), deliverance, healing, peace, joy, hope and above all love to humanity. Reaching out to the less privilege, helping them develop psychologically, spiritually, and physically.

To help bridge the gap between the high and the low......creating more morals for the child of today.
"part of our vision to help the needy, widows, orphans and those with special abilities"

It promises to be an evening of spirit filled worship as the young talented ministers and other groups/bands have worked on themselves, physically and spiritually, to lift your soul high and enrich your spirit.

It will be an encounter to remember.